The moment when you wear a dress without spanks. LIKE CAN I PLEASE HAVE A MOMENT OF SILENCE TO SAY REST IN PEACE TO ANY FORM OF SPANK. I no longer have to feel you slowly suffocating me just to make my body look smooth and slim, you were amazing and you did the job, but I HOPE I NEVER HAVE TO WEAR YOU AGAIN!!!!
I am going to do my best to paint you a picture of how getting dressed once was for me. I hated dresses but I wanted to like them because they were so cute. I didn’t like them because of how my body looked in them. So, if I ever decided to wear a dress I would wear a spank (shorts that pulled up over my belly and love handles that squeezed me in) plus on top of the spank I would wear a slip that would squeeze me in even more. The day before I had to wear the dress, I would do cardio for hours and then sit in the sauna. The morning of dress day I would wake up and work out NO MATTER WHAT TIME I HAD TO BE UP and do cardio, just to make sure my stomach looked flat.
TALK ABOUT CRAZY!!!! YEAH!!!! INSANE, ALL JUST TO WEAR A DRESS!!
SO LET ME TELL YOU HOW AMAZING TODAY FELT NOT WEARING A DAMN GIRDLE! THE SHIT FELT LIKE LIFE!!! haha and excuse my language, but seriously I felt amazing. I felt confident, pretty, fit, fly and sexy. I knew I looked good.
AND WAIT! there’s more. OLD Alicia would get super uncomfortable whenever she showed clevage. I would be constantly looking down and pulling my dress up, so I have always tried to avoid it. But, today that wasn’t the case. I didn’t mind the cleavage, I actually was loving it. I wasn’t constantly tugging at my dress, or making sure my chest wasn’t out too much. I just allowed myself to flaunt what my mama gave me! lol
I FELT FREE!!!!!!!!!!
When I got home from my event I looked at myself in the mirror and said, good job girl… you look good!! And I felt like it. I’m still sitting here wearing the dress because I don’t want to take it off!! The last time I felt this way about myself, was right before my car accident; before I gained most of my weight back. If you can relate to my story and want to feel how I feel right now… I encourage you to go after your dreams. YOU CAN FEEL THIS WAY too, and if you’re on a weight loss journey of your own, keep going. Don’t give up and don’t let anyone or anything discourage you. It’s a process. The car accident sucked but the lessons I learned over these last 2 years, changed me as a person completely. Therefore, I am grateful for all my “down” moments. Those moments made me who I am… So no matter what don’t give up. Success is not a straight line, you just have to learn to go with the ups, downs, potholes, road blocks and allow NOTHING to stop you. I remember crying about hating who I saw in the mirror… if I can get past everything I’ve experienced, I believe anyone can too. DON'T GIVE UP!